The_Fallen_Angel's Blog
you do everything wrong
December 7, 2007It seems that although I am civil and want no conflict with the man I should call Father. He feels the need to make it seem that everything was my fault. I could never live up to his standards. One thing was I was not born a boy. Stupid right? Next its the way I dress, the way my hair looks, and what I'm into. He thinks I should go into the military and everything because thats what he wants. Not what I want. Neither I nor my younger sister come first in his life. Its him first then my b**** of a stepmother and then we come last. Well atleast a month or two ago I decided not to see him for a while. One reason why is because he...he gave me a nickname because of the size of my chest. My Mother's side of my family was absolutely disgusted. When I told him how much I hated it and everything all he had to say is. "I'm your father. Father's are supposed to joke around with there kids." Yeah well when the child becomes depressed and feels suppressed and unwanted by their father that they just want to die thats when you have a problem. Hes never understood how I felt and when I went over to my grandmothers for Thanksgiving, he was there. All I heard from him was sarcastic comments. I can not find love from my Father or my stepfather who I refuse to even stay in the same room as because he came home drunk and wanted to sober up with his drunk buddy at our house. I have an 11 year old sister, I don't know his friend or what hes capable of so I was quite ticked. Thank god hes out of the house. So yeah basically I'll always be known as the black sheep and the wrong one to my so called father.